Jean's world of Reality
Systemic Lupus Erythematosus (SLE)
(It tries to govern my life)

 



 
 
 
 

On this page, I want to share with you what Lupus really is. It is a chronic disease of unknown cause, in which there are striking changes in the individual's immune system. Normally, the immune system is used to help fight off virus, bacterias, and such... But with Lupus, this changes around and causes the immune system to attack a person's own organs. It can destroy and scar up things inside the body without the person ever being aware of it.... I will not go into the technical side of what all Lupus is or does...There are many good reference places to go for that. One of the best that I have found is the Bay Area Lupus Foundation (A Chapter of the Lupus Foundation of America) 2635 North First St, Suite #206, San Jose, CA. 95134 - Phone: 800-523-3363. They offer innumberable articles in booklet form, free that can help each individual with their particular problem. Also The S.L.E. Foundation, Ind. 149 Madison Ave. Suite 608, N.Y. NY 10016.

What I want to express to everyone is what happens to the individual that happens because of Lupus...Each will be different for each person with Lupus...That is why it is called the ‘Great Impersonator Disease' The frequency that the initial episodes are diagnosed as other diseases. No two people seem to have the exact set of symptoms...Depression and extreme exhaustion seems to be the most common bond. But here are some of the symptoms listed: Persistent fatigue out of proportion with what you would usually expect; Persistent weakness; aching all over; fever which may be slight to high; persistent loss of appetite; involuntary weight loss; increasing hair loss; recurring nose bleeds; sores on the roof of the mouth which burns with spicy foods; unexplained skin rash anywhere on the body; hives; sores on the skin; painful joints; stiffness of the joints when waking up; chest pain which increases with breathing; shortness of breath; coughing up blood; presistent, unusual headache; nausea or vomiting; recurring or persistent abdominal pain; persistent, increasing swelling of feet and/or legs; blood in the urine or dark urine; fainting; vision changes; sleep problems; muscle spasms; sensitivity to heat or cold; dizziness; seizures; memory problems; chills; swollen lymph glands; extreme reaction to the sun; night sweats; changes in personality, thinking or judgement.

Now don't panic....All of those above things do not happen all to just one person....These are an accumulation of things....But then you say - -what is left over to feel sick...Believe there are a lot of things...but these are the things that a person should talk over with their doctor....
There is help....First of all attitude is the strongest thing to combat Lupus with....If you face it all with a positive attitude, you can cope with anything.... And, of course, faith, in God and yourself, is also a bigger and better weapon to fight any disease. With these two, you can face your family and doctors and know what to do to keep well.  I try to look upon Lupus as a gift that I can use, to be stronger in life and to help others. To learn tolerance of other people hurt or in pain.

I was diagnosed with Lupus back in 1991, but had many of the symptoms for many many years before that....But I finally found a doctor that tried the test correctly. Now that I had a name for it...I could fight it... Here is a poem that I want to share with you, that I wrote not long after my diagnosis. It helps to put it in perspective:



 
 
 
 

"Lupus" (wolf)

Wolf - within me,
Dark & hidden in my blood.
Waiting, stalking, to destroy me.
We alone do battle,
And you so easy overcome me.
Long, empty hours
With only you as companion
. The enemy - never friend!
Yes, I learn from you
How short & precious life is.
I cannot embrace you - -
You hurt to much!
No choice but to accept
That I must live alone with you !
Wolf - within me,
You cause me pain as you rage.
You can hurt or even kill me,
But you cannot destroy me - 
My Spirit belongs to God.
I cannot walk in God's sunlight,
But I can walk in the Light of God's Son.
So I am not alone at all -
God is there to hold and comfort me
Against you - Wolf - within me.

Jean aka Wolflady
October 1991

 
 

 

And this is another poem that helps also....I also wrote it at about the same time....

"WHY ME?"

In pain and rage, I cried aloud,
"Oh God - - why me - - why me?"
And the answer came back loud and clear,
"Why not?"

"My child - -I carried My cross with pain,
Alone and shamed to the end.
I even cried out in pain to my Father
Why had He forsaken me.
Now, each of you must bear
Some kind of cross.
It is not laid there by me.
But accept it, you must.
I will not leave you
Alone and shamed to the end - -
As I was.
I carried a load of sin AND pain.
The whole world rested on me.
Yours is such a small part
And lean on me
You must.
I alone can carry you;
Wipe the tears away
And place a smile upon your face.
I alone can fill
The empty, lonely hours.
Together we will walk,
And you will understand - -
"Why not!"

Jean aka WolfLady October, 1991

 
 

My sister and I both have Lupus and we are a good support to each other...Believe me, other people do not like to hear about all our troubles and don't understand them even if they did....Having Lupus means that you can be feeling on top of the world one moment and the next, sick as a dog.... You can not afford to make promises to go places or do things, because half the time, you don't really know if you'll make it or not... It means changing your plans at the last minute because you can't crawl out of bed to even call and explain why you can't be there. Thank the good Lord, I have a caring family that supports my sister and I with all of our feelings....They understand if we have to change plans and all of them make sure that they arrange things so that we don't get sun exposure. I also find that florescent lighting can bring on a flare. It is the UV rays that are very harmful.... So that cuts short on our shopping as most stores are full of these lights.. But you can learn to live with it. It mostly helps to have understanding from someone... A good support group, if you have one in your town, can be the best help you could ever ask for. Here are some links that have more information on Lupus and are great spots. Check them out by clicking on each name:
 

Jenny Braveheart Embracing the wolf-(Lupus)
More on Lupus
 

If you need someone to talk to, even if it is just questions or complaints, email me and I will get right back to you asap..... Or if you have a prayer request, don't hesitate to send it via email to me....Knowing someone really cares about how you feel, can help a great deal....



 
 
 
 


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